Happy 16th JasK!!!Ultimate birthday nearing the midyears(:
Anyway enjoy the best to come babe,its great to be sixteeen.
I am so gonna screw up my papers.I have finished studying the chapters given by reliable sources but right now i am having doubts about it.I dont intend to memorise anything this time,just taking down main point and sit for the exam.
I 've only been focusing on maths and ss,the others are untouched.I am gonna lock myself home and study big time today.Its my last chance so its my last shot in case i am due to screw up more.
Oh and i must talk about saturday!Met Jm at pp to find our tuition class,had mossssssss(:Then we headed to the library and guess who joined us.Allie,brandon,darren,issac,huitien and M!Yes so the whole study thing turn out to be really enjoyable.We all had a great dinner together plus half time shopping.To me,it was a productive saturday.
So bye now.
Hi!(:
The midyear papers i have taken so far were killers man.If its the O,i would jump down and kill myself rather than to see my results.Fancy coming up with such inhumane topics for both english and chinese!!I can so picture myself crying to my papers telling myself how stupidity could kill me and the rest of my life.K,so yes i wrote about"The importance of having compulsory subjects in school" and everything i wrote just contradicted my thoughts.
Yes exactly just why again must we go through all this huh!!
I think whenever i get back my test results,my heart falls faster than that to seeing an ultra hot peep.
Jm came to my house after school today,watched the maid,study and eat.It was really fun by the way.Ohhhh and today's friday!!I am so happy its the end of the week again,ha but time seems to be running out quick.Shitzzz,its so scaryyyyyy!!
Goodday people.
I have just recovered from everything which includes the eccentric thoughts and all.Yep,i wont give up,not that easy or should i say not when the exam is tomorrow!!Yikes i have got to pray very hard and count plenty on luck as well.
My physics test & add maths resuts are going to serve as my confident boosters and of course my milk.
I cant view my tagboard but i am going to reply them here so bear with me alright.
AA>Thanks for the concern,very much appreciated.(: (:
Andymilo>I dont quite get the tag and may i know who you are?(:
Xiaozhhiii>Love??Hahas,hello.
Maisuki>hey,thanks for you support, and all,it has always been the right encouragments!!(:
Yeechien>Helllllllloooooooo,how are you doing now?(:
Best of luck tomorrow everyone!!Letsgo!(:
Hi Pris.
You suck,bloody unborn chemist.
You've no life and now you are even talking to yourself weirdo.
Grrrrrrrrrrrr,stop failing or give up studying.
I am really starting to hate my mum for all the things that she's doing to me.Has she forgotten who her kids are or maybe she has just decided to abandon all her responsibilities.Taking everything out on me is her so called interest.I know nothing's ever fair even if we all share the same blood.I swear no one can hell tolerate such treatment especially when it comes to your own mother.I only remember her shouting at me the entire day and i am really growing sick of it. I dont care if she wants everything in the world to be my fault,all she knows is to slap and scream to make herself feel better if thats not the worse she will take it out on my friends who are not the least involve.Its so typical of her seriously,always making me sound like a useless slut and telling the whole world the kind of burden she has for life.Tell me now,who can live without their parents ,so now is it any different??
First she has been on the phone the whole day,then when i just use it,she forces me to hang up and engage the line.I dont get it,seeing me all miserable makes her happier and i dont know why.How am i suppose to show any respect for my mum when she doesnt respect me or my life.
The only reason i live my life is definitely not for her.Okay i am sorry for ranting this.Grrrr
Hi!(:
Yesterday was such a hectic day for me.Slept at 3 plus the night before ,had to wake up early for tuition and do more work after that.Yes life sucks please.
I didn't go for church but i heard that something went very wrong during service so yeah i don't think i will be able to react anyway.Met Fii Qh and Gina at pp,settled for dinner at Yoshi.
Studied at starbucks,took pictures,drank and of course seeing people come and go.
The world has been so small seriously,i could list out the people i bumped into earlier.
Abygail,susanna,irene,hx,melia and manda.Okay to me,thats alot of people(:
Anyway,my body's running a temperature and i am going to be skipping school tomorrow.Last night totally drove me insane.My head was spinning non stop and all i did was tossing and turing till dawn.Its going to be a peaceful day for Jimson tomorrow since me and Yl and gonna be absent,he's so lonely......
I thought about the world revolving around me and life again.About my mistakes and all,how much i miss our friendship,the distance that was keeping us apart.
I could really picture myself drowning in my dramatic life.
Okay i am going to try studying despite all and before i end my post..
I hope T,F,A,Y are okay really..
Bye world.
Hi!(:
In case ya just wondering how's life right now,it has just arrive at a whole new level of utter stress & distraught.My e-geog's the only thing thats keeping me running in circles till now,nothing esle but that.My only aim now is to get through the mid years and of course it aint gonna be easy.Okay just screw all the shit thats coming up.School's insane,and i really yearn for my life back.Stupid,just why do dreams get confused with reality most of the time huh.Unrealistic dreams dont get me anywhere.Iknow.
-Hey,i have reckoned trying to talk to you about this..but somehow i just figured out that everything just really lies individually.Maybe cause i am starting to care to much about you and thats why i am feeling this way.I feel so upset seeing you lost in class..I just want you to do better really.
Classes are really tense now man,especially cause of the nearing Mye.I easily lapse focus and end up concluding that sometimes smart cells dont run in my blood.
When i grow up,i really wanna do something that i enjoy,i mean who doesnt?But its also a stroke of luck whether you get it or not so we have no choice but to work for it.
So just i am gonna work hard to end all the agony of studying and retire real soon.(Visit california,never come back)
Hi jim,you're very nice kay?bye.(:
Hi!(:
I am Physically drained alright and i mean entirely,just drag me tomorrow for i am not going to be retaking the 2.4.Hmm ya know how's the feeling right,dead beat,faint and sometimes you just wanna give up telling yourself to press on.The story of the rabbit and
tortoise is so over cause it never works.Sheer determination only comes in without the cramps and all,seriously.
Then I had my chemistry test today which
wasn't exactly bad.I have long convinced myself that i am just not born Chemist
inclined and so i just did what i could.Spent the night figuring out stupid reactions and doing my own'experiments ,works for me.Came home and i slept ,now this goes on.I only got up at this ridiculous hour at 8 so i am just wondering how am i suppose to make it through tonight.Stay up and balance Poa which is probably never bound to be balanced?I am going through a serious phrase now man,with a total change in my lifestyle.No proper meals,no goodnight sleep ,no fun,no life.Damn it man.I finally caught a glimpse of tve for 1/2 an hour today,then i realise i actually could have forgotten how the disney channel icon looked like.Sad
Hi!(:
I am so freaking happy with my e-geog test please!!!23/25 for the first time in history man so yay thou I am quite over it already.Today is really boring maybe because its monday and there's always the monday bluessss.
I've been such an ass today.Yep i probably need muneira to remind me that i am part of the universe as well.
Nobody wanna see us together but it dont matter no,
cause i've got you<3
Hi!(:
It was an awesome day today together with Gina.
Church+study+shopping+dinner.
I think a haircut would be good,yep.
Sorry i am so lazy to blog,maybe some other time.Okay you all rock bye.
Hi!(;
Today's a real profitable day with exciting events man.
Woke up in a very unearthly hour,5 am and got to t-mart by 6.15?Omg right,then met Daryl,afiqah and aquilah.First time in so long we had to make a trip to the wet market but it was a good experience really.The people are very warm there,typical huh.
We had so much trouble loading the stuff and all(Thank you all for helping,could have died doing it alone).We used a cab down and it shall be the last time cause Jurong's bloody at the other end of the island and the cab fare had to cost almost $30!!!So not worth it please,it includes the heavy traffic plus 1hour journey .
Oh &&amp;&&&&&&&&&&&&& the sale was really good,i am so happy at least all our efforts were made to good use.No pain no gain right(:
Then we won the cheer thingy,or did we not?Hahas nevermind at least it was still good.
Okay now i want to complain ah,why Jurong has no cabs and the buses take forever !!It was so hard to get out of the district,but yeah we did many stupid things in the process.
We end up going to Pp,Fii,Jas &xh.We had a good lunch +coffee=window shop.
Went on talking about love,oh yeah like loveeeeeeeeeee.The past & all was freaking cool.
There's a burning sensation in my cheeks now,not only that my watch mark on my hands as well.The sun gave me a new malay friend too!(:See,this is my new malay friend!(:
Hi!(:
Life has changed irrevocably,its not for the good.
We teared while talking our hearts out today,but for some reasons i actually felt happier.
I hope even if the world forces us to walk out on one another,we are still the best of friends.
I heard about band,and i really feel for them.But its all worth it cause its the process and not the outcome remember.Xh,you've given your best and we all know it alright.Its never that easy to excel in everything because everything comes with a heavy price & afterall life is not a bed of roses.As long as you have tried your hardest, you will get there.Smile(:
Physics test was good but there wasnt any theory,its so stupid because i studied for it.See things never go my way ever,but to look at it now i guess it will still benefit me.
Gee,now i hope things will run smooth tomorrow.Yes yes,please help us out with the fund-raising and buy more okay!!NightWorld.
Hi!(:
Today's just out to get me,i failed add maths + 2.4 .
I did study for the test,i know it so and yet i failed.I am so
traumatise by it and i know how it is like to not achieve something you have worked for.2.4,i did my best and it was the best i can go.I dont know but nevermind as long i have the determination i can do the impossibles right?(:Ya i kept thinking about reaching for my goals while running,it didnt work very well but it helps.Then i realise how important it was to actually strive,and not getting your prize without hardwork.Encouragement as well,nothing works without it.-I sat back and started thinking about me and love.Never actually want to get into another because of many things thats going around.Honestly,its me not being able to commit and so i wont because i know the feeling of being hurt by now.But i have to admit the joy love can bring,its not only special but most importantly it gives you the warm companionship and trust.I cherish that really, till now cause i could never forget the memories or even a single instance of regret.Everything we go through,its worthwhile all in the name of love.It can be so hard to let go of love,i dont know but it just occurs.But through the process of letting go, i feel that i have learnt so much and yeah i sorta start growing up from there.I brokedown a couple of times but then again and again the people who were there ..they were my friends,with patience,care & love.The kinda love that would last for a lifetime .I walked out of darkness and i knew the path i wanna go,and i promise never to let the same history repeat itself.I've been utterly foolish & selfish .I just want to thank you for everything that you've showered upon me,it has been great having you around.I am sorry for causing you so much distraught and i guess i will never be able to make that up .You're great person,and i think you derserve a whole lot more in life and there's so much out there to persue.Nevertheless,I am still your friend forever.
Hi!(:
Katherine Mcphee-OverIt,go listen to it right now it gives you strong addiction!!
Today's a screwed day,but i manage to skip most of the lessons which was quite good?
Syf 's a goner,i dont know man we just ought to pray for the better.
You know how these kinda things can just drop bombs on us especially after all the hard work(Not me).
Went to T-mall to meet my parents after school for a short while,i dont know why we enjoy restocking the groceries at home.Yep endless supply of milk and fruits which are definitely essentials for a healthy living.
Hi dear classmates,i think you all are the coolest people in my life(:
I felt so much at ease after reading the letter,yep and i am gonna write one back to you now.
Loveyou always bestie<3
Pardon me for being so random,but sometimes i feel that its so amazing that my friends around can be so understanding .I mean everyone play such an important role in my life,even if its steping in for a minute.I treasure that,and i want you to know it.
You make coming to school worthwhile. (:
Hi!(:
Tomorrow is the day ,drama syf central judging!!Wish us luck nowww,we really need it.I hope things dont get screwed up or anything that just goes wrong.Gold??Yes if miracles really exist right now but i really believe in team spirit.As long as everyone is willing to put their hearts together anything could just happen.
I want Drama to get something,because i saw the efforts that everyone was giving.Its really stressful for someone to be standing there on stage and being yelled at repeatedly.
I feel so ashamed of myself,i did nothing kay.Not this year, and i have missed out so much man..
Its good i went today and least i saw something that really inspired me,the people,the crew,the actors.
Everyone plays a definite role there.
Okay i have been slacking through my weekend ,this sucks i need some pushing so bad.
Oh and i went to Pp today with my dad for grocery shopping,sighs this is the last in a long time.
He's going away tomorrow.
We're closer to perfection
Hi!(:
Yesterday was a blast for good friday.It has been a way long time since i been to town,i still treasure the atmosphere there and of course the crowd.
Urbanising creates the city and more live to the spirits.
Oh and in the earlier part of the day i spent some time with my family.We had lunch buffet at Rc again which was really awesome.Then we went shopping at Marina and yes i totally surpassed my limits on spending.Bought a new top,ring and a my flip flops!
My dad's great,if only i could share him with the world.
I met up with Fii and teni and we travelled down to town together and there's where we met up the rest.Namely,Jas,jeff,allie,D,Wong -!
We had our dinner celebrated at Balcony,and it was my first time there.Thanks for the treat Jas.
Took lots of pictures and random stuff we always do.
It was a fruitful event for us,we headed down to starbucks for supper maybe?Yeah then continuing with more fun stuff.
Yup after which,i cabbed home with Fii and oh yes the cab fare was like..OMG!
I love yesterday.
I am so happy for my friends yes,happiness had definitely taken up the air around.This is bliss man.
By the way,not everyone get to surmount the obstacles in life,so just go through it the harder way,you will still get to your destination someday.
Ps:I like this song,i know its old but never in the heart yeah?<3
A quick glance, a tender smile,I am caught in a spell.
A gentle touch, a warm embrace,I know that all too well. 
A soft voice, an unspoken love,Across the way I see.
A kind face, an inner beauty,That's what you are to me.
For I've never had a friendship,
as the one i have with you. 
Love.
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Happy sweetest 16 Tenissa!!!(:<3<3
Hi!(:
Today's a very very very very very bad day.Yes I cannot find any word to decribe how bad it was,but just know its bad.Sorry Zsa,i just broke my promise to attend drama today.Really sorry.
I had my napfa Test today which so shouldnt be happening because i suck physically and metally.Why must there be a napfa test,its so not helping us get into a better Jc or poly.Worse still its like jumping far distance.I'll get over this.
There's something very wrong with me today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hi!(:
Its finally our 8th investiture today,omg smiles wide please!Its finally time for us to rest on our laurels and for the new batch to take over.Well,do a good one, and good luck man.You'll be needing it.Serving is a privilege,so i guess just pick up from there.
Really hope the student body will be able to gain more empowerment and of course rule the school!
I was ultra stoned in school today for some reasons,despite the lavish teachings from my teacher but yeah i promise to do better tomorrow.Not that i have a choice but i have to start catching up.
School has been kinda fun,friends around made that happen.You know you guys are very special (: Lastly,I love hot dogs.
Its not very difficult to actually love somebody if you use your heart.Happiness is just a step away only if you learn how to cherish.Well,if you believe in fraternity that is.
