Hi!(:
Today 's like a waste of my time in school man seriously!It shouldn't even be compulsory in the first place cause more than half the class didn't turn up and that's no fun.Its like some desperate carnival in school with ultra long queues.The jerseys made today special for everyone,getting into the mood and class spirit.You know i think this is actually one way of bringing the people together.
Today felt nice in a way,spent time with my dad after so looooooooog.He picked us from school and we headed to Suntec for lunch..
I feel straight into bed when we got home cause i was in a paralyse state.
Then we had dinner at Rc today which was a sumptuous one considered if you have not been to one with the whole family in a century.
We're so lucky cause we got to watch the "Rich people parade",there was some function going on in there.There,one after another were posh cars driven in with elegant people.My god,you dont know how filthy rich people can be ,let me be more specific about this.There was a raging air above them that just make people feel that you dont belong in their world.Its just them and money.
Get what i mean now,its conjesting the whole area and we had to wait bloody long for our car.
Bye and do sleep well for a good Sunday!
Hi!(:
I
don't feel or wish to talk about today,it has been a very dull month for
Virgos.Life has
been too busy,there's no time to breathe and no time to smile.
Everyone should just breakaway from life for awhile,its has been difficult.Being a teenager can be so hard sometimes.You should understand that by now,you go through that everyday.
Today's like exhaustion to total beat to..Nearly died in class.
Now everything just reminds me of the song by Mcfly.Yes i lovelovelove Mcfly plus their songs.
I dont have anything else to blog about.
Cheerup okay okay?
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Today has been such a long mournful day.
Firstly,lessons didnt end for us till 3 which is so loooooooooong.Today'exceptionally long because everyone was feeling terribly dead.There was no special atmostphere or so to be joyful in class,maybe its the teachers.We should be given more free periods so that we could rest and energise ourselves.Okay this is soo stupid,i think i am way toooo tired.
Then i had chinese oral which turned out to be the disaster of the day cause i totally messed everything up.I keep stumbling during my read,and i really dont feel that i am going to do well,this sucks.
I attended drama today which is another mistake i suppose.Wasted my time seriously,i was there with practiacally nothing to do except talking to Hx.
Then my dad picked me up and i rushed home for tuition all the way till now.I am drained,sooo fully used up.
See everyday,we just sit there in class waiting for time to pass us by.Hoping that teachers would fall sick or maybe if there's an emergency?Then we start to get too restless and we start irritating the people around to self-entertain which precisely always work out.
I hope tomorrow's better,if i am going to pass everyday like that ..Its no life.
Hi!(:
Today started off with a huge rainfall which conjested the whole road.Damn,was stuck in the traffic for so long we nearly gave up and walk.
Other than that,my day was perfectly fine,nothing went wrong,just it is as a good school day without monday blues.Drama's the monday blues.
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Sometimes in life,we just keep bumping into obstacles wherever we go,i guess its just a matter of walking it through and being strong.Everything is just right here,attached at the back of my mind.I'll keep reminding myself,and everyone else around me.
Just keep going and do what you do best,Its gonna be fine.(:
This way,i made it.Made through everyday ..& i realised that nothing was ever so hard if you're willing to try.Even when it comes to forgetting about someone who matters to you.Letting go can never be easy,but nobody's stoping you from loving.
Yep,so smile.
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Yesterday was fine,but there was everything in the house that held me back from going out.Yep so i was late.It was so difficult to get a showtime for Bean cause everyone in the world's watching it.Okay so we queued twice to get an insane timing of 7.45.We'were suppose to be catching the 4.30 one,see there's this huge gap of time slot for us to walk the entire area.
I am so damn broke after paying for my ezlink,grr its so bullshit to be broke.With no money there's tons of things in the world for you to buy plus drool on.
Hilarious show,but its so predictable especially if you happen to be Mr's bean no .1 fan when you're young.Typical but still funny,a good way to spend your evening.Overall ,fel &Yl had made my day.
Too much popcorn's no good,trust me(:
I woke up in the middle of the night,with a misunderstanding of my dreams again.My tummy had rumbling sounds coming from it and i found myself in a desperate need for the damn loo.
P-ewwww i cant believe i could be doing such a business,or maybe i was still dreaming.
Today's Sunday or maybe a day for some good rest.No,there was this fog of lethargy that wrapped around me and i didnt wanna do anything but sleep.I read the papers and incidentally i was reminded of the Monday blues.How's that?I should have a column of a tragic weekend plus dreadful Mondays as well.
Before i end this,Happy belated birthday SeanTan and birthday peeps.Enjoy!
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Hello i didnt pon school,i just felt abit tired ah so i am excused(:Hahas okay i must have missed out alot on founder's day huh but nevermind there's no lessons anyway.Xh,remember to update me on the meeting and stuff okay?Thanks alot!
I bet anyone could guess what i did at home.Besides being way too restless,
Ps2 was keeping me busy through the night,togather with my bro who's apparently the utmost psycopath in gaming.Today 'gonna be good,i'll blog later.
Muchlove.
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I am gonna start this off with school.Yes school,the kind of
predicament i face everyday.I am gonna miss our foreign friends,it was great having them with us.Really,the exchange programme has indeed made school an awesome place to be in altogether.Not forgetting drama,i think i am just gonna quit the whole thing.Look at it,we have this really unreasonable teacher-in-charge who comes for a purpose of flaunting her flaws and not forgetting the boredom.Juniors have been suffering,i know.Guess what,i actually thought i would love my CCA when i first joined,with full passion for it.Acting is a no way future,i promise.* should just learn how to settle issues with the members in a more amicable way,it will probably work both ways.Back to class,i think i am really going to go the extra mile to improve my chinese,its gonna be hard no doubt.But its my last year to prove something worthy and chinese is my language,i should score.I just cant pronounce si shi siii ,but no its not gonna take me down.I need to do something,just anything.Chinese is too crucial for my future.Tuition classes just proves its redundancy sometimes,its all within ourselves i guess.We had a chinese compo test today and the topic sorta contrast with what i was thinking at that very moment.Seriously,people dont know how to appreciate somethings until they lose them.-Points gun to myself.Maybe we dont realise it sometimes cause we just keep losing so much.Like in people for example?You wont know how much someone really mean to you until you lose them sometimes,then for sure you know how empty life can be without them.Sad,but still its a phrase of life.I can translate this(:Alright,this is a long post.I thank you for taking your time off to read this.Lastly i am still left in a quandary whether i should attend school tomorrow.Hmm.
Hi!(:
I need to tell you all,how great and wonderful my friends are to me.My life 's so worthwhile for everything and everything.Hi Jacq & Susanna,thank you for everything yeah i really appreciate it(: Loveyou.I am quite lousy to put things down in words really ,so yes I hope this simple thank you goes out to everyone around who cares.
This home..has no warmth and love at all.Everyone should really treasure all good times with their family when they have the chance too.Yeah and thats how i feel.
You know,i am just really glad that i am able to think for myself about the whole situation sometimes.I dont know when i will get the chance to blog again cause my mum will take the mouse away right after this.
So yeah..
take care people(:
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Maybe we should forget about each other and leave the past behind.It can be so hard sometimes,especially when it somes to letting go of you special friend.I dont know if we're gonna end because there are so much uncertainties between me and you.I thought maybe you could tell me or something..
I dont think i could bear to leave you.No
Hi!(:
Today has been so bad.Maybe ladyluck has just gone away for awhile.My mum has been really harsh towards me since like dont know when.I dont understnd why should i be her punchingbag because i am a living thing as well.Now tell me who has a mum who totally enjoys discriminating you in front of the world and the best part..There's actually joy in it.
I am sorry to've blogged this because i really need to feel better.I always refrian myself from blogging about my parents cause i feel that there must be some form of respect but still..Yeah.
I am so stressed up by all the tuition classes that are bombarding on me.There's always endless homework and all.I cant take it alright and i cant talk about it to my mum because she really doesnt care.
I miss my dad and i want him home.
I am never gonna give up my life or my studies,thats one thing i am going to hold on strongly.Not for my mum but for my dad and everyone else around me.I have no reason to give up because i have everything ..well except a mum who i can turn to.Why in her eyes am i such a useless being?I wrote in my zaji about mothers.In chinese they say that every mother is the same.Seriously man,i feel that it does not apply to all.Maybe its just a different kind of love?
I have decided not to change cause of all the hurtful things that my mum have said to me today.I am really happy being who i am and i have faith in myself.I'll just keep doing what i am doing and i will just be fine.Yeah.
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Hi Jerome.Please cheerup(:See i am doing so very fine now.I have never got the chance to tell you but yeah i just wanna say thank you.For just everything and every little thing that you have done .Right now,you should be the one who should feel better and be happy.I hope nothing of it is gonna affect you alright.Afterall you are a nice guy.See perhaps todays a bad day but things will just brighten up again tomorrow.I guess everyone has problems of their own but yeah i will be here alright.Smile!
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Wait before i forget! Happy belated birthday Joel & Elliotz.Both super nice people in the world(:Enjoy your birthdays cause you dont get them everyday yeah.Bestwishes!
Today's the start of the school term,good thing everything is running as it is.Work,stress & life.Well maybe i would get use to it soon.Hahas.
I am really starting to think i am a real nutcase at times.I am so irritating huh.The 2 people beside me are suffering like hell,and so are their results.Hee.
Had Mos with Yl&Fel after school .I know..its like countless times already.Mos rockssss!Went to do some stuff in Tmall as well.
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Yesterday was pretty fun with Fii & Wong.We were hanging out at the usual place-Starbucks.(:
Grrrr,I am overcharged for the cocoa!!Hee,but with them around,my day was just simply fun-filled with lots of love and laughter.How cool.(:
Okay and about my fashion disaster yesterday.Look!!!Hahas,quite cool ah. (:
Hi!(:
I went out for like half a day,around 5.Hee Just me and my brother,we went all the way to candy empire to get my starburst!!Omg i am so satisfied with everything now(:
Then we had dinner together at Pp.Yep that was my day.
I wanted to catch up on my sleep so badly,but no my stupid eyebags wont go away.Its probably inherited from pandas and maybe thats how i got my huge forehead from the luohans.EEK.
No,i am not afraid of my flaws.(:
I realised that some people are really damn nice behind scenes,ha and you just wont see it.Right(: Like so & so and her/ him.I know that they are always nice no matter how reluctant they are to show the world.Yep,positive.
Ohhh then i started thinking about myself again,yes like always.I dont think too much anymore really,random thoughts just stream in whenever i am bored.Yeah for some reasons,my world seems way brighter than it was before.The sun's always hotter than ever,&more than once in awhile there will be a good full moon.Just like it is now.
I am so happy right now,i wish i could be forever.The feeling of being happy is so nice ..
The feeling of seeing Fii happy on her birthday,
the feeling when allie's so happy with d,
the feeling when wong 's year has been so much happier this year too,
the feeling when jas stands up after her fall,
the feeling when you see teni laughs,
the feeling whenever i have Soh yuanlin by my side,
the feeling when people are just happy..
I guess thats happiness & joy.
There are so much around that i can never stop loving..how am i to put it.Er yeah..Love.
Then i thought about love,which is still hard for me?Hahas,i love,love loveyou.Always do & i dont care if you know it.(:
Hi!(:
Today has been a great day for me,thanks to you my beloved cousins.We are seeing so much less of each other cause of the distance.See,you shouldnt have moved right.Hahas.
So yes being at home simply kills me, so i spent my day with Melia&manda.
Caught Just follow law at Suntec.Seriously i dont quite get the story but its still good,i like the humour.
Maybe the moral of the story is when you dont see yourself,you dont see your mistakes.But when you see yourself,you would realise what you dont cherish.It all just sums up to appreciating the people around and loving equally.
The world has been so small today,i kept bumping into my friends wherever i go.Hahas,must be quite an unusual coincidence.
I am thinking about time and its constrains,yep i think i am still too young to take the Olevels.Yeah,and i think i shall never be ready anyway.
Hi!(:
I woke up today finding myself suffering from intense cramps.How predictable,my menses are here again.Its always out to get me!
Whats with girls,period &cramps?The weird thing is Pms dont come with my period,i just suffer the cramps.
I had endless bars of chocolates,it always work out(:
So yes i spent my day practically in the toilet,rolling in bed squeezing my pillow and trying to ease the pain.Sad day.
Oh but i did manage to complete my homework.Chem,chinese,emaths and english.Yay.
Bye bye people.
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Gosh,i slept for so bloody long.Kay,it was such a long day in school.See i told you, i double hate school.IT programme was slightly better because the trainer was trying to be nicer and plus there was a longer break so fair.
Had pastamania for lunch with Yl.Jimson and Leonard was there to accompany us too.It was really filling and i am kinda grossed out by cheese right now.Ewww.
Add maths was a disaster,i failed my binomial test.Alright i didnt study but grr,its the first add maths test i fail.You know the feeling?Yeah you know the moral plus confidence level will like totally go down and i wont have the mood to study again.Probably leading to the worse like continuous failings and all.I'll just die.
Not a very good day to talk about man.
Hi!(:
First things first,happy sweet 16 Fii!!Woohoo another big birthday oh oh and happy 15 birthday to Cheryl!I really hope you're reading this.Loveyou.
So yeah i just got home from the chalet not too long ago,it was fun.
Teni & I cabbed down cause of many circumstances.Blablabla.
Buffet,cake,majong & fun!
There were many people there,namely..Allie,darren,jasjeff,wong,teni,xh,4r2,mf&friends,weiru,jasmine teo,qh and so many others.Yeah.
Oh and we took lots of pictures today!Hi Jas,thanks alot for the ride.
By the way i forgot to mention how freaking stupid the IT programme was,the trainer was so not nice or at least no one got along with him?Some of us went to have breakfast in the middle of the class and he was acting really mean.Grr stupid man.
&& Thank you Yl and Sam for accompanying me today at tmall.Thanks alot.
I double hate school really.Bye!
Hi!(:I swear my blog song is making me all emo.Okay anyway today has been such a long day,and everything just go like"bam" and the day is like nearly over.Drama came the first thing in the morning.Okay so some things kinda got cropped up during drama but i just hope everything is okay now.I am still furious with *,how could he show such a big attitude to our trainer,cause if anything were to happen to her,he's dead.Plus you dont find good trainers everywhere,they're rare.Someone as special as Liah dont come easy.Then i had Addmaths class.Hell boring.Oh yl i just wanna say thank you for the cd,I love it ,love it loveit!Oh and i loveyou.We had mos burger again!Yay,i never grow tired of it.We shopped and i saw my beloved bag again and its making me go nuts.I'll get it tomorrow,dont stop me.Sighs yl,you must feel better okay?I know it has been such a bad day for some reasons.Cheerup!I just finish watching Cinderella 3 and its awesome,it should probably get the best cartoon award.The only cartoons that brought out my emotions were lilo&stitch2 and now this.Seriously i think everyone should be inspired by disney somehow.Gosh.Okay i dont want to go on fancinating about the show,its too good.-Everyone deserves true love.Again someday just not today,love will find its way.I love you.
Hi!(: Today's sunday,the best day of the week for shopping.Sophisticated shopping,Woohoo.But no sadly I didnt manage to get what i want.Okay nevermind I shall get that billabong handbag very very soon.Set.
Went out with 2 loves,Allie& Wong.
Citylink to raffles city to marina square.Omg isnt it awesome.
Got some stuff..like..no i am not suppose to say it cause it will spoil everything.Okay now we all cant wait for tuesday!I am sure its gonna be some party of the year ever.I am so happy for you Fii(:This is for you.Withlove.Hello dearest you're gonna be 16 soon and this sweet 16 is gonna be one memorable one for you,that i promise.Firstly i thank you for all the good and crazy times that you've spent with me ,even at the darkest point of my life ,you were always there.I tell you,till the day i die,i wont forget about you.Yeah,this hectic year has made us drift so much,but i just want you to know that no matter what you've got my back okay.Loveyou.
If I could escape I would but, First of all, let me sayI must apologize for acting stank& treating you this wayCause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floorIt's your fault you didn't shut the refrigeratorMaybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world& I could be your favourite girl (forever),Perfectly togetherTell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)We can make it better, Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
Hi!(:Life is pain,and you could probably witness that through your heart.I could sense bad karma,for some reasons things have not been very good there.Why,we dont even deserve this.Everything is starting to fall apart & i know its because nobody is selfless.Gosh what in the name do you call one family when nobody gives a good damn about one another.Perhaps all that really matters in life is luxury?Maybe not,I sorta figured that out.Whats kinship without love & whats love with greed.It disgusts me.I hate this,totally.All that really matters to me right now is whether my dad's okay..My mum is not interested in my results ,not anymore.This sucks.-Okay i should be joyful,todays is the last day of school.Its such s short day and and the major thing is we have our report slips.Yes.Had mos with Yl after school and it was rewarding for the last day.(: Gee,i realise we have mos everyweek cause its probably like the best fastfood around.Bye & happy hols.
Hi!(: Today has been good,everything was so on the ball man.Non stop studying,writting ,brain wracking and all.
I wish Joel would have a speedy recovery,class have been pretty lifeless without him.
Jm came to my house after school,study plan spoilt perhaps cause of the exhaustion.yep could guess what we did instead huh.Yay,I am in full form today
Hi!(:Today was alright.The results are slowing revealing & its scary.I still hate drama because i have practically nothing to do after the juniors came in control.Oh yes i should be probably very thankful for that but seriously i would prefer it better if the technical people are not neglected.I have been though this for like 3 whole years of my life and when i start to reflect back,i really dont know what i have gained.Miss kelly lim is QUITE nice actually well maybe when you open up more everyone has their nice sides.Okay thank you very much netti for taking this pic unknowingly.Hahas.Goodnight everyone!
Hi!(:Goodday people!Today has been pretty good for me except......The add maths test.Yes thats about it.I am happy with my chinese really cause i didnt think i would pass.51(: & My Poa too! Happy birthday Miss si!!okay i know she wont be reading this but but everyone must know that she is one of the bestest teachers i have ever met okay.Oh yarh and we went to the Indian resturant yesterday & we had a blast man.The food was so awesome,and xh thought i actually finished my share.Nooo actually i just shifted a big portion to kenneth.But still it was fun!!yay,i kinda feel like going back there after i get rid of the naueous taste of spice.Something really unpleasant happened during drama and i am kinda lost over the whole thing.Shitxzxzx now i am in the hot soup man.I admit i am your worst senior ever.I skip drama for many invalid reasons.Tell me something...
Miracles dont just happen,sadly.
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Its a good day maybe not so thanks to the pelting rain.i dont like rainy days cause it will bring moods down & all you wanna do is sleep.I dont wanna waste half my entire life sleeping away.
So met yl at tmall and and i got the top I wanted so yay.Waiting for Nick & Tq was also in the process.
We're quite done with pe thingy now,well almost(:
Current mood:bored,random, no energy to kill someone.
My mum has been preaching alot to me,i dont know what has compelled her to do so but they're good advices. Oh no,its raining again booooooooooo.Hi daphne,hope you're okay now.Be strong,there will always be sunshine after the rain.
Labels: rain.
Flames to dust, Lovers to friends, Why do all good things come to an end?
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Sometimes you wont know how it feels till you 're in the same possesion.I would feel guilty for many years to come but i wont be sorry.Not again.I trusted you all this long.
Today's friday oh and Cheryl i dont think i will be going to the chalet cause its raining so heavily outside but but do have fun alright!I know ya will.Its a short day in school,the sc had to do some dumb cheer thingy for sports day.My god.Oh and yay,i ve scored full marks for the loci test(: Cabbed home with Jas after school,talked alot about school & stuff.Thats about it for today...i am so drained.
Hi!(:The state of euphoria- :DCommon tests are over so like its leaving a load off my chest, not completely thou.I've gotten my chinese paper back and the results are quite disappointing.39/70,its quite a good start actually on the bright side and i hope i get my 2 marks back tomorrow !-Okay the next stuff,i have been letting time pass me by nowadays.Life can be so horrid when there is so much going back there at the back of your mind.There's always my family,friends and O levels.Such issues could bring me into deep thoughts that would end up stirring my emotions.I think of my Dad,and i thought of the world out there.It could be so cruel ,really.I see my past and the mistakes i have made.I realised i couldnt change anything to make things better but i can promise to try my hardest not to make them again.Things can really get too harsh sometimes,because life make it happen.I am positive i can think well for myself,but because of many good/different influences around..I make wrong choices.I told myself,whatever the decision i have made,I would go for it.Its only through my fall can i learn.Seriously,i have so many questions and wonders what life is all about and i figured it only after every part of my life.-I miss my bfs,really do.I miss the times when we had all the things in the world to talk about & the bits and pieces of everything.
